another month had past.. how i wish it would be even faster.. get out of Army life and start working full time.. was sick today.. Acute gastrictis.. this disease seem to like me alot.. been having it very frequently for this year.. is it bcuz of the food i ate in camp?? anyway been doing nth for the whole morning le.. although i read a lot of comics but cuz its all old ones thus its more like flipping thru.. sianz.. think going down to the coffee shop to eat sth later.. then can have me medicine le.. trap at home with nth to do.. haiz.. sianz...

MeLzzz's feeling at 11:24 AM.

been a month plus since i last posted a blog... many things had happen.. and i find myself hardly able to cope with things anymore... things that happened in camp are confidential so can't really say too much abt it... only wanted to write out how terrible a person can get..
everyone knows that there are some who went to work with their feelings.. meaning to say if that person is happy he will be good to everyone and vice vesa.. that kind of person is the hardest to work with.. cuz u wun know when he will go beserk and scold everyone.. i met 2 guys till now that had this prob.. but 1 is better cuz can see he did change.. but another is the worst case.. i am too stress out by him till the point that i cant slp well at night.. and mentally is too mixed.. unable to concentrate work at hand anymore.. having to worry wat will happen if i din do this and if i do tat.. to top things off.. he is very and i stress the work "very", un-reasonable.. no point talking to him abt how u feel cuz he will tell u his mind and force u to accept it.. i was told not to be too stubbon.. but i juz cant stand things being too un-reasonable.. for the first time i had this feeling of crying my heart out on things other than BGR since she left me.. everyday on the way home i would think of her.. but i had to tell myself that everything had ended since she left me the 2nd time.. i'm cracking up.. needed help but where? i need someone who had to power..
having wrote these out, i began to ponder whether things are to stress for me or am i giving myself too much stress?? i reckon the latter.. but how can i stop giving myself too much stress?? normally i had some1 by my side to take away all these problems but she had left.. i'm starting to get sick of life.. i wan to make a difference in everything.. organisation like the SAF needs sth better than now.. but i dun see them doing the stuff.. instead they went left it behind and proceed with other things.. 3G means 3rd Generation right?? wat does it mean?? better education and surroundings for new age ppl?? or living in the old and working in the new??
thats sth to ponder abt..

MeLzzz's feeling at 10:27 PM.

very long never post le.. now feel like writing sth here haha

On the 27 Aug 2006, a very big event was held at Padang. I was among the thousands of participants for the SAFRA Sheares Bridge Run & Army Half Marathon (AHM). basically i was taking part in the AHM la.. running 21.1km.. and i completed it in 2h56min... very slow compared to my colleagues.. so shiok after the run.. haha reall it is the run of your life time to be able to run that far.. anyway got a medal for it la.. to confirm that i got take part and completed it..

back to work as usual on tues (mon off as i took part in the AHM) and shit works start coming in again.. sad.. haiz..

went to a fren birthday party last night at a k pub.. dunno wats it called but its more happening than the usual pub u find at clarke quay or boat quay.. play and drink till all super drunk.. haha i manage to stagger home and get comfortable in my bed.. vomitted a lot of times during the night.. its till nth can be vomitted that i had to stop myself frm vomitting.. den as usual after clearing the stomach dehydration starts to sets in le.. mus water parade.. and that makes me keep waking up to go toilet.. first time really get so drunk.. dunno y so easily drunk last night.. haha sian lei.. wat to blog??? cant find anything in my head right now.. lucky i dun get hang over after drinking.. but last night i had this profuse sweating while sleeping... dunno y.. shud consult the MO on monday..

MeLzzz's feeling at 2:59 PM.

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can see wat i did up there?? spells up every weekend that i have.. everyone is so busy with other things only i too free with nothing.. how i wish RSN can hurry up with my application.. so i can stay inside IMOS and book out every weekend to slp at home.. life really too boring le.. feel so tired... nothing to do lei.. how.. really sian lo.. sian sian sian sian ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

y every couple like to hurt each others heart? quarreling is very bad le.. y still wanna break up?? will singapore be like taiwan?? only wan love but not marriage?? i got a good advice that someone once said, "Y break up when u r so used to his behaviour and temper? y bother to find a new partner and start everything all over again?" wat a good question.. but roughly i can guess the ans out there... "Cuz we are not suitable for wach other" or "i wanna be free for now" or "i cant stand it anymore" haiz.. juz a feel words.. even those who are together for half a century will break up.. and worst, for those who are preparing to get married but in the end they separated... haiz...

MeLzzz's feeling at 7:41 PM.