finally my leg can run a little le... sianz... took so long to heal... but ok lar, such a serious injury only took 2 weeks and less sia... haha
actually i m all mix up now... i was wondering where i m place in her heart... as a fren or sth better?? totally confused and i wasn't feelin right... she suddenly happen to remember my bday this year... nulike last year which she dun... i always wanted to date her out but everytime i went out wid her, or b4 going out wid her, especially nowadays... i had this awkward feeling... 1 thing keep coming into my mind... am i making her 2 timing her bf? y doesn't her bf care what she is doing? doesn't her bf ever feel that maybe 1 day he will lose her?? what is in his mind??
is this the love or BGR that is now?? u dun bother abt me and i dun bother abt u?? how can anyone survive this kind of insecure feeling?? doesn't any1 ever care that their love ones will get blown away by the wind?? or need they wait till den and ask themselves if they could juz ask the leave to stay?? i love er, but i once said that i wanted her to have happones... is this the kind of happines she is looking for?? she did change, willing to spend sometime wid her bf now... wud care to meet him on tues after her night lesson since she will not be free on sat... she wun do so last time... cant even meet her a day a week... i know i had controlled her a lot last time.. and there is now no chance anymore... no more chance to tell her i love u softly in her ears... and she whispered back... i still remember the times i whispered this into her ears right frm my heart, i said these words... i never lied when i said tese 3 words...
my fren keep saying he wanted to say goodbye to the single days... i heard this and ask myself... can i say these words out?? i dun think i cant... gers are getting more materialistic nowadays... going for good looks and good character... the more hunk and funnier u are the more gers will be attracted to u... i am neither of that... i cant me like 1 of my sister (Crystal) always manage to have a nice and wide smile on her face... maybe she is a ger ba... thinking diff... she did tell me that is this kind of relationship between both of us (me and ex) is good to me?? she said she dun think its good... its only doing more harm den good to me... said i shud let go... but can I??? if i can, i shud have let go long ago... now i'm stuck... stuck 4ever... will i be present on the day she get married?? i dun think i will b a groom to anyone... i wish her happines deep frm my heart... i will never forget those moments wid u...
I Cry...
Cry Alone in the Dark...
I Love...
Love a Girl frm my Heart...
Alone...
I Live alone in this World...

MeLzzz's feeling at 12:03 AM.