dunnoe what got into me these few days... whenever i saw the news abt the Tsunami, or some stories that are classified as sad, i wud have the urge to cry even when i think of her... finding myself getting more and more paranoid... keep thinking others had better things den me. ex-gf had a bf which i assume she had found her Prince Charming... everyone had a job even part time... majority of fren going to NS (for guys)(shud not be good lar but juz envy they can go NS early den me) is wat i am feeling called Jealousy or is it enviness? i wonder... wish i had a gf by my side, a ger that i can dote on and love her and be loved inreturn... hard... very hard fo me to find a gf (i wanted to put "we guys" but after much thought i prefer not) anyway for ladies are so easy to get a bf... dun believe me ladies? juz walk up to someone u know and still single and ask him to be your bf... most likely (if u are not bitchy or foul mouth) he will say yes even it will take quite a time for him to ans. haiz... the more i said the more i feel sooo distraught (did i spell correctly??)

MeLzzz's feeling at 6:39 PM.